Today my heart is heavy.
We found out last month that we are expecting another baby! Even after having 5 children, it is such a joy to see the + on the pregnancy test! We have been blessed many times over.
But today, we found out that our dreams and prayers for this precious child would not come true here on earth. Instead of holding this child in our arms, we have had to release him into our Father's arms. This is our 5th miscarriage, and you would think it wouldn't hurt as much. Each miscarriage has been hard. Each miscarriage has been a loss and a hurt to our hearts. And as we received the same news about this child as we have received several times before....our hearts hurt just as much.
It has been a privilege to hold this child for the past 8 weeks. It has been a joy to think about what he or she would look like. It has been nice to think of our family with 6 children. It has been wonderful to say I'm pregnant. And it has been a blessing to pray for this child. A child I will now return to the One who gave him to us.