Many people have been choosing their "word" for the year. I have been thinking about that a lot lately, trying to decide if I chose a word for the year what would it be? I could choose something like "intentional" because I would like to be more intentional with so many things. I could choose the word "discipline", because I need self discipline in so many areas. Or I could choose the word "thankful", because I believe that if you choose to be grateful for everything, you can see the beauty in so many things.
After much thought (it is almost the end of the month already!), I have decided that my word of the year would be....
TRUST
This is a very scary word for me. I know that God's ways are perfect. I know that whatever He has planned for me will be far better than anything I can imagine. I know that He will carry me through and provide for anything I need.
So why do I struggle with FEAR?
I will admit, part of the reason is because I am a control freak. I like need to know what is going to happen, how it will happen, when it will happen....you get the picture. Following where the Lord leads means I am giving all control to Him, and accepting whatever His will is. I really want to do this, but FEAR keeps getting in the way.
I fear what the future could hold. I fear getting out of my comfort zone. I fear what others would think of me. I fear failure. I fear the cost~financial, emotional, physical or otherwise.
I can look on our life and see the times we obeyed God's prompting. I see how stressed we were making excuses and I see the peace when we were acting in obedience. I see it during our adoption. I see it in our decision to homeschool. I see it in job offers both accepted and declined.
So this year, I will work on trust. This verse says it all for me...
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight". Proverbs 3:5-6
Blessings,